There is something which, for
want of a better name, we shall call the tragic sense of life,
and it carries along with it an entire conception of the Universe
and of life itself, an entire philosophy more or less formulated,
more or less conscious. And this sense may animate, and
does animate, not only individual men, but entire peoples. And
this sense does not so much flow from ideas as determine them,
even though later these ideas react upon it and corroborate
it . . . But there is more to it than that: man, because
he is man, because he possesses consciousness, is already, in
comparison to the jackass or the crab, a sick animal. Consciousness
is a disease.
Man is possessed
either of an excess of matter or an excess of spirit, or to
put it better, either he feels a spiritual hunger, that is,
a hunger for eternity or he feels a material hunger, that is,
a hunger to submit to annihilation. When spirit is in
excess and man feels a hunger for yet more of it, he pours his
own spirit out and spreads it abroad, and as it pours out it
grows by contact with the spirits of others; when, on the other
hand, avarice takes hold, man withdraws into himself, thinking
thus to better preserve himself, and ends by losing everything
. . . It is not charity to rock and lull our fellow men to sleep
in the inertia and heaviness of matter, but rather to arouse
them to the anguish and torment of spirit.
Memory is the basis
of individual personality, just as tradition is the basis of
the collective personality of a people. We live in memory
and by memory, and our spiritual life is simply the effort of
our memory to persist, to transform itself into hope, the effort
of our past to transform itself into our future.
The passion to
be remembered if possible when oblivion overtakes all others
is tremendous. From it flows every envy, the cause, according
to the biblical narrative, of the crime which began human history:
the murder of Abel by his brother Cain. It was not a struggle
for bread: it was a struggle to survive in God, in the divine
memory. Envy is a thousand times more terrible than physical
hunger, for envy, is a spiritual hunger. If the so-called problem
of life, the basic problem of food, were ever solved, the earth
would be turned into a hell, as the struggle for survival would
become even more intense . . . We aim at being everything because
we feel it is the only way to escape being nothing.
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