Melancholy is at the bottom of everything,
just as at the end of all rivers is the sea. Can it be otherwise
in a world where nothing lasts, where all that we have loved
or shall love must die? Is death then, the secret of life? The
gloom of an eternal mourning enwraps, more or less closely,
every serious and thoughtful soul, as night enwraps the universe.
To descend without murmuring the stream
of destiny, to pass without revolt through loss after loss,
and diminution after diminution, with no other limit than zero
before us - this is what is demanded of us. Involution is as
natural as evolution. We sink gradually back into the darkness,
just as we issued gradually from it. The play of faculties and
organs, the grandiose apparatus of life, is put back bit by
bit into the box. We begin by instinct; at the end comes a clearness
of vision which we must learn to bear with and to employ without
murmuring upon our own failure and decay. A musical theme once
exhausted, finds its due refuge and repose in silence.
...And life consists in repeating the
human type, and the burden of the human song, as myriads of
my kindred have done, are doing, and will do, century after
century. To rise to consciousness of this burden and type is
something, and we can scarcely achieve anything further.
To rebel against fate - to try to escape
the inevitable issue - is almost puerile. When the duration
of a centenarian and that of an insect are quantities sensibly
equivalent - and geology and astronomy enable us to regard such
duration from this point of view - what is the meaning of all
our tiny efforts and cries, the value of our anger, our ambition,
our hope? For the dream of a dream it is absurd to raise these
make-believe tempests.
To be a conscious monad - a nothing which
knows itself to be the microscopic phantom of the universe:
this is all we can ever attain to.
Henri-Frederic
Amiel |